10/17/06
it all began…
no
that’s a lie
it began long before that
no
that’s not true either
it’s beginning now
again
or
perhaps
it
always was
or ever
shall be
it all began
again
for the first time
the first time
I saw you
no
I saw you
long before that
a distant star
you shone long
in my galaxy
even as I navigated
toward you
all those years
all those circuitous routes
all those minor stars
I felt
I needed
to orbit
but for naught
unsure if I really wanted
to reach you
to find you
to see you
for the first time
though I’d seen you
forever and before
and ever shall again
no body
celestial or otherwise
claims me
as you do
I relinquish my self
to you
I offer all that I am
in trade
for your warmth
and your light
and your lightness
why would I not?
do I not
receive myself from you
again
mingled with you
and your warmth
and your light
in return?
I found
when it all began
and find
when it begins again
every time
that the self
I receive again
from you
with you
and your warmth
and your light
is so
much
more
than the self
first sent
it is whole
again
always whole again
for the first time
since it all began
again